I met my husband during our senior year of high school, back when life still felt simultaneously simple and infinite—when the future stretched out before us like an open road with no visible end, and we genuinely believed that love alone could conquer absolutely anything that came our way.
We were both seventeen that year, living in a mid-sized town in Pennsylvania where everyone knew everyone else’s business. We were young enough to believe with our whole hearts that love was all you needed, yet old enough to make plans that felt permanent and binding. We talked endlessly about which colleges we’d apply to together, about cramped studio apartments with bad plumbing that we’d somehow make romantic, about future careers we pretended to understand even though we had no real concept of what adult life would actually demand from us.crsaid
His name was Michael, and he was my absolute first love—the kind that imprints on you forever, that becomes the standard by which you’ll measure every relationship that comes after. I was his first love too, or so he told me countless times. When he smiled at me across the crowded high school cafeteria during lunch period, when he reached for my hand in the hallways between classes, the entire world felt safe and secure and exactly as it should be.
Then, one week before Christmas during our senior year, everything in our carefully constructed teenage universe completely shattered into pieces we’d spend years trying to put back together.
